they said that pain is part of living... it is one of the signs that a person is still alive.... some individuals choses to die than to live in a painful way... its been almost a year since i started living in the world which they call "hell"... hell becoz im hurting, hell coz im in deep pain..too deep that u cant measure nor get into it.... hell coz ive shed almost a billion of tears just to ease this pain.... hell coz i really felt that the world has left me...hanging..lost and broken.... hell coz even how hard i tried the horror of suffering and pain still haunts me even in the somber of my sleep.... hell coz i can see no tomorrow no future and an endless tunnel of darkness... another billion of tears to shed.... thorns to step at... endless journey...carrying the world upon my shoulder.... hell coz my heart is shouting, yelling and crying for comfort,...for help.... to those who has caused me and brought me to this HELL.... then suddenly i woke up...realizing that, yes..i may have felt immeasurable suffering... the deepest pain a person could feel... i may be crying for billions and billions... [More]
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my heart is smiling again....('_-)...
March 7, 2007
hmmmm.....i feel soooo good right now..i never really thot that i would ever feel this "CERTAIN" feeling again... it's an over whelming relief... the readiness to fall in love again... after my tragic experience from my "EX_BOYFRIEND" who happens to tell me HE IS CRAZY IN LOVE WITH ME, YET HE IS TOO COWARD TO FIGHT FOR IT. we went through the greatest test of our relationship...you know the PARENTS thing..acceptance such as that... he was frightened by the words my parents told him... and even though he was shouting to the world that he was SOO IN LOVE WITH ME... he walked out of our relationship and chose to hurt me BADLY... i am now renewed.. my heart, reborn.... responding to the smiles of many BEAUTIFUL GENTLEMEN around me... now my heart is smiling again....(^_^)...
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end of month of hearts....
February 28, 2007
hmmmmmmmmm....its the last day of the month... and i still dont have my salary yet....i was actually expecting to have it yesterday..coz i only have enough means for my fare... huhuhu..but the day hasnt been concluded yet... i called my friend who worked at the accounting section and said that the individuals at the cashier might release it this afternoon.. dah...im crossing my fingers for that... I NEED MONEY!!!!...(^_^)..for my WANTS.....hehehehe.....
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